کم رنگ ترین چایی که میشده رو ریختم اومدم نشستم اینجا که اینو بخونه تموم شه پا شم برم سر کارم منم. تموم نمیشه.بخارست هم امروز تموم نمیشد.

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u' n' i were talkin'- at least i tried
u' n 'i were walking but u seemed to slide u seemed to slide' u seemed to slide' u seemed to slide u seemed to slide u seemed to slide

the claws of a crayfish, it's true
pose little threat to a shrew
but we're lost in a blizzard of sound
in hard armoured words we are drowned

....

"
و من در اين وداع
سرگردانم.
تنها صدايی دور
بسيار دور
"در دلم فرياد می‌کشد

fuck the world when i am out of tempered and i know that i was so damn wrong, mistaken, and now bitterly regret..but, still, stoned, to fix it. to fix anything.

تحمیل شدن.همیشه.

she's not insecure
she's not that worreid to move
she's just not o.k.

so drown me.. if you can..
or we could just have conversation..

so lets face it, this was never what you wanted
but i know that its fun to pretend
our blank stares and empty threats
are all i have
they're all i have..

Though some may hold the rose
Some hold the rope

چیه این عجیبه که هر دفعه میشنوی "تو چی می خوای؟" انقدر شوکه میشی؟
چرا یه بار واسه همیشه این تموم نمیشه بره که اگه یه آدم تو این دنیا هست که تو و چیزی که تو می خوای به هیچی ش نیست،اصلن اگه هیچ کدوم از آدمای این دنیا به هیچ جاشون نیست که تو چی می خوای، یه نفر هست که الان، فقط واسه همین الان، همینجا..حتی اگر داره تظاهر میکنه ولی داره ازت میپرسه..

How many times have I hurt you
How many times have you
And how many times I'd been on my knees
Begging, begging please forgive me
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yeah..it's a sea sickness.

seasick

خواب. که آروم بگیره.

شب نخوابیده باشی و همه روز فکرت این باشه که میری میگی "..بس باشه.هوم؟" و ... و...
نشه دیگه.. نه اینکه نذاره..که حتی نتونی.. که بدونی آدما گاهی وسط اردیبهشت..وسط طوفان.. از شنیدن یه همچین چیزی ممکنه انقدر جا بخورن که میخ شن سرجاشون سرشون رو کج کنن ازت خواهش کنن "بمون" ..
...
امروز هیچ شباهتی به اونروز نداشت.. طوفان هم نبود.. اصلن هوا نبود..
بارون هم متوقف شد.

یه جاییه که باید برم. جاست ایت..

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می خوام ازش بپرسم حوصله دو سه روز یه جای دور رو داره؟
چیه این سوالاست که انقدر احمقانه ست؟

So cold is being tired
Behold the feeling tired
Stand quietly at the side
Watch darkness open wide
The light is growing dim
So dim..
within..

“I think you'd remember
When you were so locked down
If you were a burden in a previous life
Sleeping alone at the foot of your bed would
Give me a reason to worry at night”

It feels like forgetting. like aching.building new memories. it always feels like the night.smelling the wind. it feels like sinking. Surviving. Forgetting. Recalling.

“I wasn't sure that all of my words could
Could even try to hold the weight”

It feels like inhaling. Breathing in smoke. in his arms.

یه جوریه. همین امشب آشوبه.

.

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همین که دیگه واینمیسم بگم من نیستم. نمیام. یعنی خسته ام. یعنی این زندگی من نیست. میدونین.

In your experience of the world, how do people change?
You ain't stupid, So don't ask stupid. Ask something for real.
Was it a hard thing crossing the prairies?

رد هم میشم.

فردا صبح منم یکی از همین آدمهام..